9 weeks

Oh my.

It's been a while.
Although it really doesn't feel like it's been so long.

But I have missed this space and I'm excited to be here once again. What's most important though, is that I finally feel ready. Recovering from the c-section and all that Ella's birth entailed has been a slow process, charged with raw emotion, full of uncertainty, amazement and love. Someday soon I will share more about this, but for now I think I'll just say that becoming a mother has been the scariest, toughest and most beautiful experience I have ever had. And just for the record, I wouldn't change a single second of it.

So here's the reason I can't get anything done :: I can't stop looking at Ella. Perhaps this is all part of the phenomenon of being a new mother? All I know is that each moment of my day is spent trying to capture every smile, every coo and every adorable little laugh, not to mention her fingers, toes, cheeks and that gorgeous baby smell. Does it ever end?

Comments

[sally]

Welcome back, Ali! I remember when my first son was born, I think I only slept a few hours the first week because I was SO excited and couldn't stop looking at him. Motherhood is an amazing journey and although challenging, it is the most rewarding thing ever! And for the record, you just grow to love your child even more as time passes...just wait til little Ella's personality develops...then the fun really begins!!

[Kuky]

I still stare at Isabelle. :) She's a ball of energy. I especially love the end of the day when she's asleep and I can smell her little feet.

[leslie]

oh, look at her, just look at her - how could you not? she's just beautiful and i'm so happy to see more photos. can't wait to hear more about how the experience has been...

[Alison]

It never ends :)
At night, I go in and touch both faces, and just lean in and breathe them still.

[Tracy]

That's just precious. I don't have children, but I imagine that is quite normal. Quite.

[leslie]

never. it never ends.
and keep looking. it goes so fast.
she is beautiful!

[Ruthie]

Nope, it doesn't it. It can't end! :) At six months, I'm still as enraptured with Millie as the first moment I saw her. I can't get over her feet of all things, they're so perfectly formed, so cute.

You're so right when you said, "Becoming a mother has been the scariest, toughest and most beautiful experience I have ever had."

P.S. My url has changed again, sorry!

[pamelatang]

i can certainly understand why you can't stop looking at her... she's just perfect!

[joanna]

the happiness has just began! very sweet pictures! =)